I truly feel that I need to pray for my birth mother. Growing up, she allowed me to be raped, in our home, under her nose, over a period of thirteen years – my entire childhood but even so when she leaves this world I want her to go to Heaven. That’s what’s important to me and today she is old and very lost so she needs my prayers.
I also feel that I need to pray for the man who spent those years raping me, sharing me and torturing my soul and for my only brother who was witness to some of the abuse but to this day is too cowardly to accept it and stand up for himself – stand up for what he knows is immoral, true and right.
Prayer is the only way that I can help them. Not just them but also myself. If I’m not in a place within my heart to pray for them, I cannot truly forgive them and I will not heal from the burdens in which I carry.
God tells us that if we don’t forgive others of their sins then we will not be forgiven for our own sins. He also tells us that it is through our prayers for others that we ourselves are able to grow in His love and heal, so I have to do this, not just for them, knowing they truly need it but also for my own self because I need it as well. I guess it’s fair to say that I feel convicted knowing what God wants me to do. My life is to honor Him.
From the personal journal of Kerri Bishop Reece
Healing Kerri – written Dec 1, 2008